Final Blog

I think that right now a lot of things are important to me that will be important to me in the future and maybe for the rest of my life. Right now girls, school, friends, sports, and family are probably the most important things in my life. However I don’t think much of that will change and this is because I think my mindset will always be the same. Girls, sports, and school I think dominate my life the most as that is what I enjoy the most. Like everyone else I am still looking for love even I am in love with a girl it is not working out like it should or as I imagined and hoped it would. Love kind of sucks but I still pursue it because it will be worth it in the end and I will be looking my whole life until I find it and it is perfect. Sports right now are coming to end but that doesn’t mean that they are over. Playing soccer and running track I know I will continue to run for as long as I can and play soccer for as long as I can. I am playing soccer in college and I think it will always be a huge part of my life. School is very important and always will be even after college. As I know that even after I completely done with my education I will still need to use it every day of my life with the profession I consider pursuing. Friends are also a huge part of my life because I see them every day and they are a big part of my life because they have helped shape who I am as a person. I have surrounded myself with loving caring good kids as my friends and in turn I am a loving caring and good kid at least I think I am. I see my friends every single day and I don’t know what I would do without them especially my close friends. Family is very important for my father but not as important to me. Because of my father however my family does do a lot of stuff together and that is also a big part of my life. I think that these things are important to me because they are my whole life. They are all things I keep around me so I deal with them every day whether they are good or bad. They are important to me primarily because of normality. I am used to these things being there and if they were not I think I would be lost. That is why they are so important to me because I am used to them and they are important to me because they are always there. I think if this ever changed it would be hard for me to change with it because I am so used to it. That is exactly why I say that I won’t change things that are important to me when I get older.

Wild card is hard

Every time a wild card is given it gets harder and harder to think of something to write about.  I remember in the beginning of the year getting a wild card as one of the blog topics for the week was the best thing that could happen, and writing about anything I wanted to, was so easy, and these types of blogs just flowed out.  But now this is not the case, I find these blogs to be the hardest possible and truthfully I do not know why it is getting so hard to write about anything I want to.  So I guess instead of writing about my future I’ll describe an incident that happened in my life that required me to dig down deep, and reach out to people for a helping hand to continue on.When I was eleven years old I was in the gym practicing Olympic sparring, usually I practice kicking moving pads and targets, or focusing on drills to increase endurance power and speed in my fighting skills.  When I would practice fighting someone it would usually be someone my age or an instructor who would only block or fight back lightly.  But to gain an advantage when fighting kids my age, I began to spar with a four years older than I was.  During practice one day I was slow reacting and he threw a kick landing square on my face, shattering my right orbital bone.  It was a devastating blow to my confidence, and after the incident I was reluctant to return back to the sparring ring.  But my desire to return back and accomplish my goals was greater than my fear of getting hurt all over again.  I looked too my parents for guidance as well as my trainers and teachers who encouraged me and pushed me to train hard and get back in the ring.  Without their support and uplifting attitudes it would have been much more difficult to get back up, dust myself off, and get back to doing what I loved.

Advice

Two begin; I would like to say that I am not very pleased that this is the second blog in a row that involves not just a topic that involves my own life but a topic which entitles me to share specific instances in which I must share my life to the world.  This is not because I am embarrassed or ashamed I just feel a tad bit uncomfortable doing so.  On that note I guess ill begin.  If I could somehow meet up with the past me and give myself advice with the knowledge I know hold (which is not a whole lot) I would definitely have a few stories to tell as well as a few hints or pointers to take in so things that did not go so smoothly go a little easier or may never happen at all.  I guess the first thing I would give advice about is school, and by school I mainly mean the grades and school work aspect.  If I could tell my past me about how important studying and grades and applying myself is and will be things would be much different.  I would tell myself that spending the small portion of time now will mean a huge difference in the upcoming years and that my junior year is the most important year of my life and that focusing on my schoolwork for the few months I am in school is much more beneficial than going out with friends and slacking off, and that those few months will dictate my entire life.  That those months will determine how much money I will get as far as scholarships go, and that with larger scholarships doors open up to which college I can attend instead of dealing with the juggling act of educational and financial weight.  On the other hand I would tell myself that during my freshman year and up I should work hard in track because I will develop into a fantastic athlete and if I had trained since hard since freshman year instead of the end of my junior year and senior year I would be a nationally ranked individual runner and not just a state ranked runner.  As far as advice goes I feel like that sums it up for the most part.  Besides a few little tips on how certain things will end with certain people and maybe that I should not invest so much time in certain people due to knowing the outcome that is all the advice I could give the past me of two or three years.

Forgiveness

A well known quote that I feel is sometimes over used, but I believe holds substantial value as it speaks the truth, goes like this, “forgive, but never forget” which coincides with my beliefs and how I handle instances that require me to have to forgive someone. 

I feel that instances that require forgiveness of a person usually involve being left out, forgotten, trust being broken, and pretty much anything that involves you getting the short end of the stick so to speak may lead to you needing to forgive someone in some way shape or form.  I believe forgiveness is something you must commit mentally, and by this I mean you must take whatever problem or action that bothered or hurt you, and make a connection that you are no longer angry at the person for making you feel this way, and that you are okay with the person even if you are not okay with how everything went.  The little ball of anger you feel towards a person due to a specific instance where they let you down, or made you upset or angry, is what must be let go of, and that is what I believe forgiveness is.  Notice I did not say forget or let go of the specific instance as you must never completely forget, which of course is what the famous quote is referring to.  I have found it very hard to forgive certain people of certain things and some things I still have not been able to forgive them, but I believe in time I can and that is all that matters.  It is of course better to forgive right away, but we are all human and that is not always possibly.

Forgiveness should be practiced often and not on occasion as it is unhealthy to hold pent up anger towards someone.  If someone holds onto all their emotions and keeps everything bottled up, they will eventually break down and lose it.  So it is much better to forgive and move on than it is to hold everything on the inside.  I feel that it may seem that something is unforgivable but in reality everything can be forgiven it is up to the person to find it within themselves to do so.  It takes great discipline and to forgive everyone of everything they have done to you, and if a person can do that, they in my eyes are of utmost maturity.

College

I tend to like when there is a set blog topic, as it takes away the painful process and yes I said painful, of picking what to write about.  Usually when there is a topic already set in stone that I must write about, it is easy to sit down and get right to work.  But clearly this is not the case this week as it is a wild card, meaning I must first think of a blog topic and then write about it.  Well after a little bit of consideration and thought I felt like writing about college and what is to come would be a good place to start, due to the fact that choosing a college you are going to attend must be done by May 1^st which is surprisingly extremely close.  It is weird to think that I was once a small freshman, thinking how long four years would be, and that high school would like an eternity.  I was so wrong, high school flew by, I can barely register how fast everything went, and that a whole new chapter of my life is about to begin.  I am sure the feeling of four years and how I thought they would take forever to pass by in high school will be the same for college.  As I ready myself for something completely new, to finally be alone as far as parental guidance goes is a little bit scary.  What makes this whole thing even more frightening is that I do not really have the slightest idea of which school I wish to attend out of the schools I applied to.  They all have really big pros and really big cons and with little middle ground in between each it had made the decision extremely hard to make.  The schools I have to choose from right now are NJIT, Seaton Hall, and New Haven University, although OCC is an option it is not really on the table, considering my parents have had enough of me and do not wish for me to stay another two years.  I am leaning more towards NJIT and New Haven University, and I have already visited NJIT I have plans to visit New Haven on Wednesday.  Hopefully after visiting New Haven I will be able to finally come to a decision on which school I will be attending.  My parents want me to attend New Haven but the choice is ultimately up to me as it of course my future and I dictate where I want my life to go.  The upside of going to NJIT is that I know a few people that go there already and that it is also very close to home so if needed I could come back home on weekends.  New haven on the other hand is a little farther away, but the campus offers much more to do as far as entertainment and the college itself is much nicer.  After Wednesday hopefully I will have my choice of schools picked out and ready to start a new chapter of my life.

unfinished business

I can’t say I have too much unfinished business per say, I feel like I have lived out my high school career to the fullest, participating in multiple sports, obtaining my goals of becoming both the soccer and the track captain since junior year.  Excelling in both sports, and getting multiple school records that I never thought I would ever obtain.  Leaving high school with a great group of friends that I will never forget, and will still continue to be close to after this is all over with.  I feel as though I got as good as grades as I could have for most of my high school career, but I do have some regrets about how hard I tried, but that cannot be fixed in the final two months that are dwindling down to a close.  To answer the question would I change this year, I would have to say no.  I love how my senior year has panned out, if anything I would change it so it would go by slower, but we all know that cannot happen.  I would change previous years though like my sophomore year, because I regret things I should have done regarding sports and my junior year for not studying as much as I know I should have, even though my parents certainly reminded me enough. But besides that I think how everything has turned out.  My future plans consist of NJIT as that is where I seem to be leaning towards going to for the next four years.  I will be participating in division 1 track, and I look forward to that as well.  I hope to obtain a degree in civil engineering and I must keep a C average in all my class to keep all my scholarship money so I have so challenges ahead of me.  I feel like I am ready to start a new chapter of my life with new people but I am nervous that I will be overwhelmed by it all, scared of how difficult the work load will be and how I will find help if I need it.  It is all so new and uncharted territory for me but that is what makes it exciting.  I already visited the school and I like the vibe there.  I love how close it is to the city, as I am a huge fan of New York and the city environment as a whole so I feel like I will fit in quite nicely at NJIT.  I hope everything works out well, but as the next two months come to an end I will enjoy it while I can, cause I know I am going to miss how care free it is right now, and how it will never be like this again.

Don’t Judge a Book by Its Cover

Don’t Judge a Book by Its Cover

We have all heard of the saying “do not judge a book by its cover” countless times, and I feel like this is a good place to start considering all the books we have been reading in class. 

Have you ever heard about a book, or saw a book and really dreaded reading it, but surprisingly enjoyed it once you actually began to read it?  Or maybe on the reverse side, you saw a book that looked absolutely amazing and you just felt like you had to read it, but ended up not being what you had high hopes of it to be.  Write about an instance or maybe instances where judging a book by its cover was either correct or misleading.